Mother's Day 2011

I had a very relaxing Mother's Day weekend. As Arlo Guthrie once wrote to me: "No expectations, no disappointments". We went shopping, took Elise swimming in a very cold pool, and just talked to eachother about personal stuff. I liked it. Mother's Day has always been a sad day for me because my Grandma Lupe (who raised me through the rough times) died the night of Mother's Day, 1994. I still have the dried roses I gave her that day. But being a mother now has softened the blow, given me something to be happy about, even though she won't let me write about the love I feel for her and Anthony cuz she's calling for me right now. "Come here, Mama! I need you!" Oh well, if it wasn't her stopping me it would be him needing me for something. At least I'm needed and loved. That is a very important responsibility and I rise to the challenge. So, adieu, duty calls! :)

Strange Days

So many bizarre things have been happening of late. Maybe it's true what people say: A change is coming. People, things, our environment, morphing into something different. I don't think I like it. It's not an easy-going, happy feeling. It's tense, like waiting for a tornado to hit, or being in the eye of it. My power trio family is doing well. We're all getting along and loving eachother. But others in my life have fallen by the wayside. After 17 years or so my best friend has made her final exit from my life, to my benefit I'm sure. I look back at the things that have happened and I get angry I let myself be used so often. I was knowingly used. I let it happen. I've wasted so much time. Family, love, helping who you can without taking from yourself, these are important things. Yes, giving of yourself without taking from yourself. Save the best for those who matter. Your children, your family. They are all you have or need. Keep them safe and let life do what it will, I guess. We are still under God's eye.